I've been thinking lots about 2021 and what it's about for me personally, and me professionally and my growing company. What I know for sure is that I'm never ever ever going back to living a broke ass life. Never.
There was a time when I thought spending hours upon hours on my budget spreadsheet was a really good use of my time.
Gotta bring my grocery expenses down.
Gotta be stricter with my shopping.
How can I reduce my spending so I can get out of debt faster?
There was a time when I thought I wasn't worthy of certain opportunities or to be at certain tables because I don't have a college degree.
Obviously I don't know enough.
They're smarter than me.
They're going to think I'm stupid.
There was a time when I genuinely believed that I couldn't manage my own finances, that I couldn't make certain decisions on my own and that I needed others to validate me.
Fuuuuuuck! 😭
It's weird to reflect on this stuff, and I'm honestly getting choked up thinking about Annie from that time (basically my whole life pre-2018). Ya see, I'm a little sister with codependency stuff I'm working through.
The truth is, I always knew enough and had the tools to live the way I wanted but so much of what I believed was tethered to what other people believed. People who cared about me, people who loved me.
Because I didn't know any better, when they projected their doubts, fears, and whatever limiting beliefs they had about themselves (or me), I believed them. They were older or more this or more that than me.
The truth is they didn't know what I'm capable of.
Frankly, they didn't (maybe still don't) know what they're capable of either.
With love, that's not my shit and I'm no longer holding on to their beliefs about the world or me because it makes them feel comfortable or safe.
People who struggle find comfort in keeping their people down because it validates their beliefs about what's not possible and they don't want to be left behind. This is true in a myriad of ways, even when they think they're encouraging you. The crabs 🦀 in a bucket analogy is real.
Here's the deal, I know what I am capable of and I swear to god I always did, but there was just enough projection from others that I created my own doubts and fears.
Other people's shit, fears, and doubts are not yours to carry.
The reason I'm sharing all this so openly is because a lot of this yucky stuff ☝🏽has been coming up lately in spaces I'm in, surrounding the New Year, the election, and future/post-COVID life among other things.
I want to tell you directly:
You can do the things.
You can charge that amount.
You can sit at that table.
You can be part of that conversation. Shit, you can facilitate it.
You don't have to cut expenses to get out of debt, you can actually make more money pretty fucking quickly.
You are smarter than you will ever fully know and are teaching so many of us without even realizing it. You never know who's watching, so keep shining.
Your experiences are real and what make you so special.
I was listening to Rachel Rodgers the other day and she was saying all the things I've been thinking. I was like, "Yes!! That's what I've been thinking too!" She talks about Broke Ass Decisions vs. Million Dollar Decisions, which I find relevant whether we're talking about money or life.
Abundance is available to you in so many ways and I promise you have everything you need to create it all.
Big love,
Annie