Clarity Blog
Musings from My Desk
The very first time I experienced anxiety was about 10 years ago. Yeah, 2009. I remember being unable to pinpoint the exact cause of the incessant butterflies in my belly, and flutters and twinges in my chest, but I remember thinking for weeks, “I feel really anxious.” I realized later that it was the beginning of my relationship with what I now describe as anxiety.
A friend recently posted on Facebook a question about cultivating patience. It really resonated with me because I tend to want things to happen right away.
When I really reflect on how I practice patience, it turns out I’m growing in my abilities (thankfully!). I think patience, like meditation, non-judgement, compassion and all the other things that make us better humans, are works in forever progress. They’re practices — things we do over and over with the intention of becoming incrementally better each time.
I was thinking a lot about the goals I’m working on right now and how for 11 days straight they’ve been more than mildly impacted by all. of. the. things.
I’m a week behind on my Clarity Pages, meditation is basically nil, my nutrition is BONKERS, I’m under hydrated, under slept, and under exercised, but most most most importantly, I’m truly filled with joy.
There is no reason at all why having what you want isn’t possible.
What do you really, really want though? This is a big and not so simple question to answer.
You can’t just arbitrarily pick goals. You really can’t. You’ll never get them and will create a habit of letting yourself down for not getting them. But don’t feel bad, they were arbitrary in the first place so no wonder you gave up.
As I sit here thinking about all the goals, ideas, plans that I’ve come up with since I was a girl compared to all the things I’ve spent my life doing, I realize that my process for getting from here to there isn’t much different today from what it was twenty five plus years ago.
Basically it goes like this…
